one of the best features of keeping a blog (keeping is a loose term these days) is that you can revisit the past and be reminded of how you felt at a certain point in time.
it's also interesting to see how easy it is to slip back into similar mindsets...
the circumstances might be slightly different, but the sentiment is still the same... i am
grumpy but grateful.
yep, i needed that perspective check today. we've officially entered into what i call the "low self esteem point" of the pregnancy. i feel absolutely enormous, nothing fits, the weight gain continues, and these feet of mine look and feel like they belong to elephants. there is also a ginormous stack of projects to finish on my desk, the ever-persistent backorder of furniture and bedding preventing me from finishing mason and madison's respective rooms, and a husband's work schedule that has consisted of a week spent out of town and the rest of the month full of night shifts.
definitely grumpy.
but it only takes a few seconds of clarity to also realize that our lives are about to change forever. that this (often painful) wiggling in my belly is a constant reminder of the miracle i am hosting. that the (temper-tantrum-throwing) three year old glows with love and excitement when he talks about his baby sister. that all of these aggravations are just temporary. that we are blessed beyond measure.
"so we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal" - 2 corinthians 4:17-18